Re: THE RANT THREAD!
Medusa and I follow a lot of the same routines. Even down to Solitaire and Crossword, though I actually spend more time with Sudoku. Which replaces podcasts while I'm waiting for the pass-the-hell-out pills to kick in. I'll also burn the midnight oil with some droning on Netflix.
I do, however, over-analyze the living shit out of things breaking them down so as to lose the overall emotional response. I'll also stuff things into categories of "not my rock", "ancient history" or "nothing I can change".
Just that once in a while something triggers an avalanche. This current avalanche started with what should have been a positive note: my ex-wife finally dumped the breaking down POS Grand Am and bought her very first brand new car. Then I started to think... and that's where the trouble began. Nothing of my routine worked, nothing in compartmentalizing worked. Like a black hole, I just put myself into a deep abyss, by thoughts and feelings, alone.
I'm doing better today. My psychosis is returning, slowly, and I can feel the sociopath starting to warm up. But gawds how I abhor hurting, crying, feeling like a victim of my own emotions! Kill it! Kill it with fire!
And thank you, my friends, for putting up with my batshittedness! Seriously. Thank you!
Medusa and I follow a lot of the same routines. Even down to Solitaire and Crossword, though I actually spend more time with Sudoku. Which replaces podcasts while I'm waiting for the pass-the-hell-out pills to kick in. I'll also burn the midnight oil with some droning on Netflix.
I do, however, over-analyze the living shit out of things breaking them down so as to lose the overall emotional response. I'll also stuff things into categories of "not my rock", "ancient history" or "nothing I can change".
Just that once in a while something triggers an avalanche. This current avalanche started with what should have been a positive note: my ex-wife finally dumped the breaking down POS Grand Am and bought her very first brand new car. Then I started to think... and that's where the trouble began. Nothing of my routine worked, nothing in compartmentalizing worked. Like a black hole, I just put myself into a deep abyss, by thoughts and feelings, alone.
I'm doing better today. My psychosis is returning, slowly, and I can feel the sociopath starting to warm up. But gawds how I abhor hurting, crying, feeling like a victim of my own emotions! Kill it! Kill it with fire!
And thank you, my friends, for putting up with my batshittedness! Seriously. Thank you!
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