Re: Confessions
I'm selfish, I don't care about people's feelings. I find myself wanting to steal and hurt people all the time. I haven't a rage episode in years but found it to almost almost twice this month. I'm feeling pretty calm as I right this out. Feeling indifferent all of the time sucks. It's a boring life full of me trying to find small thrills. I hate rules but I'll follow them if the consequence is greater than the benefit. I want a relationship, but then I don't want one. I need someone who's like me, but those relationships never work out, lol. Using manipulation doesn't bother me. People use manipulation all the time. Something as simple as saying the word please is manipulation. Little m and Big M.
I swear, seems like everything is a game. Especially with my teacher. She's my target, I won't even hurt her. I just want to know how her mind works. I suspect she's like me in some way or another and that's why I feel I can confide in her. I'm waiting for her to report me or say something to me about my behavior but she still hasn't despite her being more cold and stoic to other students. I'm not even the only person to notice. Apparently other students notice her odd behavior and now call her my "girl friend" smh. I don't even think it's like that. There's obvious tension between us but not in that way. More so, some type of messed up mutual understanding.
I'm selfish, I don't care about people's feelings. I find myself wanting to steal and hurt people all the time. I haven't a rage episode in years but found it to almost almost twice this month. I'm feeling pretty calm as I right this out. Feeling indifferent all of the time sucks. It's a boring life full of me trying to find small thrills. I hate rules but I'll follow them if the consequence is greater than the benefit. I want a relationship, but then I don't want one. I need someone who's like me, but those relationships never work out, lol. Using manipulation doesn't bother me. People use manipulation all the time. Something as simple as saying the word please is manipulation. Little m and Big M.
I swear, seems like everything is a game. Especially with my teacher. She's my target, I won't even hurt her. I just want to know how her mind works. I suspect she's like me in some way or another and that's why I feel I can confide in her. I'm waiting for her to report me or say something to me about my behavior but she still hasn't despite her being more cold and stoic to other students. I'm not even the only person to notice. Apparently other students notice her odd behavior and now call her my "girl friend" smh. I don't even think it's like that. There's obvious tension between us but not in that way. More so, some type of messed up mutual understanding.
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