As many of you will know, it was a full moon a few nights ago. I decided to hold Esbat as I haven't in a long time and I really feel ready to dive back in. I have a slight concern though. As I've mentioned elsewhere, I am testing all my previous, Wiccan-based, beliefs and practices to see what is relivant to me as a solitary and what I should drop.
Well, I had forgotten until I experienced it again, but I have a very strong reaction during rituals. As soon as deity is invoked, my body tingles, my breathing deepens and a really nice sensations runs through me. I usually cry too, but tears of joy. In the coven, I was not able to draw down because invoking INTO myself, makes this even worse. In the past, I believed this was just a reaction to experiencing deity, a Mystery if you will. But is it? Being blunt with me, is this something I should be learning to control? Is it a sign that I can't handle the powers I am trying to work with. Or do you experience this too?
I feel something similar but not nearly as strong, when I read or hear something that really hits home and speaks to me spiritually or religiously. I also feel this sometimes when I am out in nature, but again, only slightly.
Be honest with me. Should I be worried or just celebrate this as a part of my religious experience?
Well, I had forgotten until I experienced it again, but I have a very strong reaction during rituals. As soon as deity is invoked, my body tingles, my breathing deepens and a really nice sensations runs through me. I usually cry too, but tears of joy. In the coven, I was not able to draw down because invoking INTO myself, makes this even worse. In the past, I believed this was just a reaction to experiencing deity, a Mystery if you will. But is it? Being blunt with me, is this something I should be learning to control? Is it a sign that I can't handle the powers I am trying to work with. Or do you experience this too?
I feel something similar but not nearly as strong, when I read or hear something that really hits home and speaks to me spiritually or religiously. I also feel this sometimes when I am out in nature, but again, only slightly.
Be honest with me. Should I be worried or just celebrate this as a part of my religious experience?
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