Just thinking about being with the whole extended family for the next several days makes my chest feel heavy. I love them all, and I am eager to see them all; however, they also make me a little insane. I am working very hard to have the best possible expectations, to visualize a harmonious time, because I absolutely buy into the self-fulfilling prophecy bit. I wish I could pull from memory one single time we were all together without ... ugh. It has been a few years, and maybe they are all as eager as I am to have things go well, and so maybe they will also be on their best behavior. I just need to breathe, I think. Breathe.
Any others with mixed anticipation?
Any others with mixed anticipation?
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