The title may be a little off topic I had wanted to tell a few people but I think it may be best to discuss it here openly. I hesitated of talking about it openly because I was afraid my brother would find out. And I'm still afraid. But it might be best. I am tired of living in constant fear over my brother. I'm saying no more.
The main reason I came on this site was to receive some sort of spiritual help. It involved my brother and his problems. His practice in magic. I want to finally tell everyone the main reason why I hesitated. This is NOT made up. This is true I am member on this site for a reason. I've been a member of this site for a while but I was so held back in fear, I refrained from speaking about it. Please, I implore you to read all of this. I know it's long, but it IS important.
I think before I tell the reasons why it's best that I explain a little backstory before going into it. Over 10 years ago, my brother obtained a book of magic. I am not entirely sure where he got it whether it was from a library or someone else but he never told me. The only way I found out was through my father. My father has passed away not so long ago, and I miss him dearly. One of the last things he told me was something about my brother. I was talking to my dad about my brother since my brother had a host of problems, with drugs, the law ect. in the past and my dad speculated that maybe his brain had been corrupted from what he read in that book. I expressed disbelief as I said that mere words on text and speaking a language that hasn't been spoken for thousands of years wouldn't effect his mind or make magic by doing spells or rituals. My dad told me that words are power and one shouldn't simply judge things as they appear. He explained my brother obtained the book. My brother did rituals but the more he did it, the more it hurt him. The magic he was using caused him to eventually hear voices, see things, and have nightmares. My brother talked about my dad about this and my dad realized the seriousness of the situation. My brother and my dad went onto barren land in the middle of nowhere and buried the book after shortly doing a small ritual in an attempt to purify my brother, I suppose. Why my brother couldn't simply return the book or burn it or throw it away, I don't know, but for whatever reason he had to do this. My dad never practiced magic, at least I don't think he did, but he believed it to probably be real due to the fact that my brother was going through hell my reading this book. I wasn't sure if the book was corrupt and had rituals that messed up his mind the more he did it, or he improperly performed a ritual and it backfired. Whatever the case, he stopped doing magic and kept this secret to himself as well as my dad and mom.
It was only a year and a half ago that my brother about my magic. He told me that he always had in an interest in the occult, myths, ect, but he never admitted to me that he practiced magic until then. He is always a very secretive person, and hardly talks about his past. He doesn't talk about it because he feels no one can help him or that he'll appear to be a freak in everyone's eyes, but I also think he had done things that aren't considered ethical. Not evil, but untheical and he has said that he's done things he's never been proud of. He explained magic to be because he was "tired of being moral" and wanted to have some fun for a change. He had recently broke up with his ex. But he introduced something to me. It was a certain liquid that he claimed to enable him to get any woman he wanted." He told me that this liquid was made from an apple and one had to do a certain ritual before applying this liquid. He used the liquid as a cologne and put it on his shoulders, neck ect, and it sort of acts like an aphrodisiac but more potent. He said he used this and girls from a super market were openly flirting with him when he applied it. Even his ex who was talking to him online and was disgusted with him previously, was almost lusting after him. He said, if one tricked the woman to drink the liquid the woman would lust after them even more and stay with them for some time. I asked how it was possible. How is it possible that he's doing this. He said he didn't care how it works. All he cared about was that this ritual worked. He wanted to introduce me to magic because I was considered a good friend to him and he only wanted to share this with me. However, I knew better.
I knew full well that even though we were friends and we do get along for the most part, he has betrayed me and cheated me sometimes. He knew I was a virgin as well. He never explained what religious path he followed, if he followed on at all but he said worshipping certain deities was necessary but again he was vague. Since he has never been the most trustworthy, I concluded he was trying to trick me somehow. To be brought into his fold. I am a virgin but he knew I wanted a woman and I was infatuated with a certain woman at the time. He also told me that in order to do this ritual, one had to go into the woods, take an apple, and speak certain Sumerian words. He said once I did, I would start seeing frightening images, but told me never to run away from them. Again he never fully explained what these images were or why I had to stay still. He told me he followed "The Path of Fear" and I have no idea what he meant by that. However he is a frightening figure when he is angry. He's been angry before and I have seen him instill fear in people that antagonized him. He has been manipulative in the past so it makes me think he's used magic to make people afraid of him. He told me I would be looked upon as sort of a freak, I would see things no one else could see and hear things no one else could do, and promised me power over anyone but I refused. I stated that trying to do magic and uses forces I don't fully comprehend isn't exactly wise. I admit I have always been over cautious but my brother is impulsive, willing to try things like this without even considering how it works, or what the repercussions or consequences are if someone abuses it. I also explained to him that it wasn't exactly ethical to do this, but I also said, I wanted to find a woman myself and not resort to magic to help me do something like that. He said he understood my decision and didn't want to rush me into it and said whenever I was ready, I was to talk to him. I asked him why he was being so vague about his path and his descriptions and aftermath of spells and description of rituals. He said I simply "wasn't ready to learn" and that once I understood his path, he would explain everything. But I knew this magic he used was real, but I will protect myself.
I once hung out with him in a party where he was with his ex who wasn't his ex anymore. We hung out, had a good time and so forth but things turned weird and almost frightening after the party. After it was over, me his girlfriend, him and his friend were there. My brother told me he applied the ritual liquid on him and that he was going to see how well it worked on his girl. He still insisted on me trying it, but I refused. I think he was drunk or maybe he was just angry, but he started being more insistent on it, saying I was just "scared to do something new" and that he sensed my fear. I told him I wasn't going to be stupid and uses forces I don't fully comprehend and not consider the consequences. He knew my decision and warned me to keep it secret and warned me not to tell anyone he was a sorcerer. I told him it wouldn't matter and they wouldn't believe me anyway. I went to sleep, but he told me he laid with his girlfriend. Even then I could sense there was a little remorse in him doing it and it made me think that maybe it wasn't right, but even then, he still continued using his magic.
Over a period of time, I noticed he had symbols around his room when I was cleaning it when he was gone for a little while. He had sigils of certain beings and demons like Asmodeus, Pazuzu, Azazel and so forth. He had a book called the "Necromantic Ritual Book" but I never read it. He even had a prayer note written on paper, asking for Asmodeus to give him a woman. I am not sure if he worships them or not, but he also mentioned paying homage to Inanna and other Sumerian deities. He had a note online that he left. He was sending an e-mail to some friend of his and it involved bizarre behavior. We had a goat farm before and mentioned to his friend that some of the goats might die of worms because some of our goats were infected, and if they fell down dead, he would decapitate the dead goats head, boil the flesh off and give the skull to his friend as a gift. Why I don't know, but he also said at the end of the e-mail, "May the blessings of Marduk be upon you" which implies he worships Marduk as well as Asmoedus the demon and others or he could just be using their powers for his own benefit. I am still not entirely sure. He even had a pentagram on his door which looked like it was made of blood! I thought it was blood at first but figured out that there was a red paintbrush and a paper tray with red paint so it has to be paint. Even so, it's still weird.
I am concerned with my brother. Something with him is tainted and corrupt. I don't know if this kind of magic he's using as messed up his mind, or he's possessed or not. He has taken medication before but I'm still not sure if he does or not. His mind I don't think, is all there. I don't think he's evil, just messed up and confused. I've known him all my life and I still don't know who he really is. I didn't want to post this, but I just need some help in protecting myself. I thought if I posted it on here, he would curse me or something. I don't know if he is going to or not, but he will, so be it, but I will not give up and I certainly will not live in fear all my life over my brother. I am tired of it. All I ask is some help. Please, I ask of advice, certain spells, healing. It would be most appreciated if you pray. Prayers would help. Please pray to your gods and goddesses. All I ask is your help.
The main reason I came on this site was to receive some sort of spiritual help. It involved my brother and his problems. His practice in magic. I want to finally tell everyone the main reason why I hesitated. This is NOT made up. This is true I am member on this site for a reason. I've been a member of this site for a while but I was so held back in fear, I refrained from speaking about it. Please, I implore you to read all of this. I know it's long, but it IS important.
I think before I tell the reasons why it's best that I explain a little backstory before going into it. Over 10 years ago, my brother obtained a book of magic. I am not entirely sure where he got it whether it was from a library or someone else but he never told me. The only way I found out was through my father. My father has passed away not so long ago, and I miss him dearly. One of the last things he told me was something about my brother. I was talking to my dad about my brother since my brother had a host of problems, with drugs, the law ect. in the past and my dad speculated that maybe his brain had been corrupted from what he read in that book. I expressed disbelief as I said that mere words on text and speaking a language that hasn't been spoken for thousands of years wouldn't effect his mind or make magic by doing spells or rituals. My dad told me that words are power and one shouldn't simply judge things as they appear. He explained my brother obtained the book. My brother did rituals but the more he did it, the more it hurt him. The magic he was using caused him to eventually hear voices, see things, and have nightmares. My brother talked about my dad about this and my dad realized the seriousness of the situation. My brother and my dad went onto barren land in the middle of nowhere and buried the book after shortly doing a small ritual in an attempt to purify my brother, I suppose. Why my brother couldn't simply return the book or burn it or throw it away, I don't know, but for whatever reason he had to do this. My dad never practiced magic, at least I don't think he did, but he believed it to probably be real due to the fact that my brother was going through hell my reading this book. I wasn't sure if the book was corrupt and had rituals that messed up his mind the more he did it, or he improperly performed a ritual and it backfired. Whatever the case, he stopped doing magic and kept this secret to himself as well as my dad and mom.
It was only a year and a half ago that my brother about my magic. He told me that he always had in an interest in the occult, myths, ect, but he never admitted to me that he practiced magic until then. He is always a very secretive person, and hardly talks about his past. He doesn't talk about it because he feels no one can help him or that he'll appear to be a freak in everyone's eyes, but I also think he had done things that aren't considered ethical. Not evil, but untheical and he has said that he's done things he's never been proud of. He explained magic to be because he was "tired of being moral" and wanted to have some fun for a change. He had recently broke up with his ex. But he introduced something to me. It was a certain liquid that he claimed to enable him to get any woman he wanted." He told me that this liquid was made from an apple and one had to do a certain ritual before applying this liquid. He used the liquid as a cologne and put it on his shoulders, neck ect, and it sort of acts like an aphrodisiac but more potent. He said he used this and girls from a super market were openly flirting with him when he applied it. Even his ex who was talking to him online and was disgusted with him previously, was almost lusting after him. He said, if one tricked the woman to drink the liquid the woman would lust after them even more and stay with them for some time. I asked how it was possible. How is it possible that he's doing this. He said he didn't care how it works. All he cared about was that this ritual worked. He wanted to introduce me to magic because I was considered a good friend to him and he only wanted to share this with me. However, I knew better.
I knew full well that even though we were friends and we do get along for the most part, he has betrayed me and cheated me sometimes. He knew I was a virgin as well. He never explained what religious path he followed, if he followed on at all but he said worshipping certain deities was necessary but again he was vague. Since he has never been the most trustworthy, I concluded he was trying to trick me somehow. To be brought into his fold. I am a virgin but he knew I wanted a woman and I was infatuated with a certain woman at the time. He also told me that in order to do this ritual, one had to go into the woods, take an apple, and speak certain Sumerian words. He said once I did, I would start seeing frightening images, but told me never to run away from them. Again he never fully explained what these images were or why I had to stay still. He told me he followed "The Path of Fear" and I have no idea what he meant by that. However he is a frightening figure when he is angry. He's been angry before and I have seen him instill fear in people that antagonized him. He has been manipulative in the past so it makes me think he's used magic to make people afraid of him. He told me I would be looked upon as sort of a freak, I would see things no one else could see and hear things no one else could do, and promised me power over anyone but I refused. I stated that trying to do magic and uses forces I don't fully comprehend isn't exactly wise. I admit I have always been over cautious but my brother is impulsive, willing to try things like this without even considering how it works, or what the repercussions or consequences are if someone abuses it. I also explained to him that it wasn't exactly ethical to do this, but I also said, I wanted to find a woman myself and not resort to magic to help me do something like that. He said he understood my decision and didn't want to rush me into it and said whenever I was ready, I was to talk to him. I asked him why he was being so vague about his path and his descriptions and aftermath of spells and description of rituals. He said I simply "wasn't ready to learn" and that once I understood his path, he would explain everything. But I knew this magic he used was real, but I will protect myself.
I once hung out with him in a party where he was with his ex who wasn't his ex anymore. We hung out, had a good time and so forth but things turned weird and almost frightening after the party. After it was over, me his girlfriend, him and his friend were there. My brother told me he applied the ritual liquid on him and that he was going to see how well it worked on his girl. He still insisted on me trying it, but I refused. I think he was drunk or maybe he was just angry, but he started being more insistent on it, saying I was just "scared to do something new" and that he sensed my fear. I told him I wasn't going to be stupid and uses forces I don't fully comprehend and not consider the consequences. He knew my decision and warned me to keep it secret and warned me not to tell anyone he was a sorcerer. I told him it wouldn't matter and they wouldn't believe me anyway. I went to sleep, but he told me he laid with his girlfriend. Even then I could sense there was a little remorse in him doing it and it made me think that maybe it wasn't right, but even then, he still continued using his magic.
Over a period of time, I noticed he had symbols around his room when I was cleaning it when he was gone for a little while. He had sigils of certain beings and demons like Asmodeus, Pazuzu, Azazel and so forth. He had a book called the "Necromantic Ritual Book" but I never read it. He even had a prayer note written on paper, asking for Asmodeus to give him a woman. I am not sure if he worships them or not, but he also mentioned paying homage to Inanna and other Sumerian deities. He had a note online that he left. He was sending an e-mail to some friend of his and it involved bizarre behavior. We had a goat farm before and mentioned to his friend that some of the goats might die of worms because some of our goats were infected, and if they fell down dead, he would decapitate the dead goats head, boil the flesh off and give the skull to his friend as a gift. Why I don't know, but he also said at the end of the e-mail, "May the blessings of Marduk be upon you" which implies he worships Marduk as well as Asmoedus the demon and others or he could just be using their powers for his own benefit. I am still not entirely sure. He even had a pentagram on his door which looked like it was made of blood! I thought it was blood at first but figured out that there was a red paintbrush and a paper tray with red paint so it has to be paint. Even so, it's still weird.
I am concerned with my brother. Something with him is tainted and corrupt. I don't know if this kind of magic he's using as messed up his mind, or he's possessed or not. He has taken medication before but I'm still not sure if he does or not. His mind I don't think, is all there. I don't think he's evil, just messed up and confused. I've known him all my life and I still don't know who he really is. I didn't want to post this, but I just need some help in protecting myself. I thought if I posted it on here, he would curse me or something. I don't know if he is going to or not, but he will, so be it, but I will not give up and I certainly will not live in fear all my life over my brother. I am tired of it. All I ask is some help. Please, I ask of advice, certain spells, healing. It would be most appreciated if you pray. Prayers would help. Please pray to your gods and goddesses. All I ask is your help.
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