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    too many paths i cant walk them all can i how do i pick?

    I feel like a pagan mutt in a sense so many different pracatices appeal to me yet i dont know which feels right. Its like i want to try them all in a way. I thought i found a coven i thought it was fate i was thinking of relocating there. The pantheon i thought they would follow would be Bast but it wasnt it was Hebrew teachings. I dont mean disrespect but i saw that and that coven stopped feeling like home. Part of me wishes i had a mentor so i could be taught correctly. Not researching reading and piecing the best i can together. For the most part i practice nothing i feel like im playing with fire. But it feels like im staying in a standstill.

    I like feedback when i learn things.... i liking knowing my mistakes so i can correct them. It feels like if i am my only teacher how far can i grow? I want to know i do things correctly or if im not i want to know. I just want to feel like im making progress.... that i can apply the tools i have learned.

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    Re: too many paths i cant walk them all can i how do i pick?

    Quote Originally Posted by loststarshine View Post
    I feel like a pagan mutt in a sense so many different pracatices appeal to me yet i dont know which feels right. Its like i want to try them all in a way. I thought i found a coven i thought it was fate i was thinking of relocating there. The pantheon i thought they would follow would be Bast but it wasnt it was Hebrew teachings. I dont mean disrespect but i saw that and that coven stopped feeling like home. Part of me wishes i had a mentor so i could be taught correctly. Not researching reading and piecing the best i can together. For the most part i practice nothing i feel like im playing with fire. But it feels like im staying in a standstill.

    I like feedback when i learn things.... i liking knowing my mistakes so i can correct them. It feels like if i am my only teacher how far can i grow? I want to know i do things correctly or if im not i want to know. I just want to feel like im making progress.... that i can apply the tools i have learned.
    I think that many of us have been in a similar situation.

    For what it's worth, IMHO, spiritual/magickal teachers are overrated. I sought one for years and never found them - not in the human world, anyway. I found that, by allowing myself to explore different paths/cultures/religions/pantheons/etc. without being under someone's guidance - it gave me room to grow and to learn at my own pace, being completely free to disregard what didn't work for me while spending more time on what did.

    Spiritual growth isn't something that can really be measured by a teacher. They often specialise in particular areas and tend to hold steadfast to their own ways of doing things - which can sometimes be limiting for their students.

    What exactly do you want a teacher to teach you? Energy manipulation? Spellwork? Ritual work? You seem to be in need of feedback in general more so than actual teaching from what I can see in your post. That's where places such as Pagan Forum come in quite handy. You can bounce ideas off others here and use what you learn from them in your own practices.

    If you're still unsure of your path and are still Seeking, I would personally advise against joining a coven. They don't tend to serve as a learning group or a study group - but tend to be an established order of individuals who share a set of beliefs. What you would learn from such a group is one way of doing things and one set of beliefs - something that I feel would honestly pigeonhole you.

    Have you looked at WitchVox.com? They often have listings for actual study groups in various places.

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    Re: too many paths i cant walk them all can i how do i pick?

    Quote Originally Posted by Torey View Post
    I think that many of us have been in a similar situation.

    For what it's worth, IMHO, spiritual/magickal teachers are overrated. I sought one for years and never found them - not in the human world, anyway. I found that, by allowing myself to explore different paths/cultures/religions/pantheons/etc. without being under someone's guidance - it gave me room to grow and to learn at my own pace, being completely free to disregard what didn't work for me while spending more time on what did.

    Spiritual growth isn't something that can really be measured by a teacher. They often specialise in particular areas and tend to hold steadfast to their own ways of doing things - which can sometimes be limiting for their students.

    What exactly do you want a teacher to teach you? Energy manipulation? Spellwork? Ritual work? You seem to be in need of feedback in general more so than actual teaching from what I can see in your post. That's where places such as Pagan Forum come in quite handy. You can bounce ideas off others here and use what you learn from them in your own practices.

    If you're still unsure of your path and are still Seeking, I would personally advise against joining a coven. They don't tend to serve as a learning group or a study group - but tend to be an established order of individuals who share a set of beliefs. What you would learn from such a group is one way of doing things and one set of beliefs - something that I feel would honestly pigeonhole you.

    Have you looked at WitchVox.com? They often have listings for actual study groups in various places.
    I have a witchvox account it has been helpful. But it seemed to lack so i kept looking intill i found here. Reading other views on subjects that challenge (in a positive way) my thoughts and opinions.

    I knew in a way this is a path no one else can teach me how to walk. This is a different learning process then most others a person goes through. Where you study intill others view you as ready. Thats why a part of me feels the need of someone telling me if i did something correctly that im ready to move on. For example i have read how to cast a circle many times in many different styles. I still want someone there to tell me i did it "right".

    I have stayed away from covens due to what you described. I guess having more pagan friends will help me accept this more as a real part of my life. I have more christian friends so i feel silly telling theme im a witch my goddess came to me as lion. I feel like i have to deny my beliefs. It feels like thlike im just in a phase. So i want need others to believe similar to me or truely accept it whats right for me.

    I get told egyptian magick is alot of dark magick. That bothers me. It feels like home like right why do some consider it bad? Makes me wonder the meaning and purpose of blood magick. I mention to others its like asking them to invoke a deamon or something. I dont want instructions on how to just an understanding of their reasoning of why others felt it necessary tool to utilize.

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    Re: too many paths i cant walk them all can i how do i pick?

    My experiences were different in that I had a lot of trust issues, and still do to some extent, so that I did not seek the opinions of others. Whatever you think of whatever brand of Christianity you have experienced, Jesus, whether 'real' or fictional, said some pretty smart things. One of my faves is knowing a tree by its fruits. You don't need somebody to tell you whether something you are doing is "correct," you only need to observe how it manifests in your life.

    I take it on faith that each path is unique just as each brain is unique and, therefore, each understanding is unique. There are levels of understanding that cannot adequately be shoved into words, so learn to trust yourself. Others can point at the moon, but only you can apprehend the moon. Don't mistake the pointing finger for the moon. And, no, that metaphor is not mine, but I wish it was. It is an old zen story.

    Don't know if that is helpful at all, but have faith in yourself and trust your intuition.

    "No, no, you're not thinking; you're just being logical." -- Niels Bohr

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    Re: too many paths i cant walk them all can i how do i pick?

    Quote Originally Posted by loststarshine View Post
    I still want someone there to tell me i did it "right".

    I have stayed away from covens due to what you described. I guess having more pagan friends will help me accept this more as a real part of my life. I have more christian friends so i feel silly telling theme im a witch my goddess came to me as lion. I feel like i have to deny my beliefs. It feels like thlike im just in a phase. So i want need others to believe similar to me or truely accept it whats right for me.
    Aaaaaahhhh I get those feelings everyday! I feel like I need someone else in my life who is pagan who I can share ideas and stories with to validate me... But I'm learning that in life, the only person who can validate you is yourself. Which is hard, tbh, especially when everyone around you is so different in beliefs.

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    Re: too many paths i cant walk them all can i how do i pick?

    Quote Originally Posted by miss_mc View Post
    Aaaaaahhhh I get those feelings everyday! I feel like I need someone else in my life who is pagan who I can share ideas and stories with to validate me... But I'm learning that in life, the only person who can validate you is yourself. Which is hard, tbh, especially when everyone around you is so different in beliefs.
    Thank you. Yeah i have been listening to podcasts. The one pagan friend i have is my opposite so fairly often its hard to gain support and she has her own self confindence in her own craft work so ive been looking for others. I have to be the confindent one between us she looks to me for advice i dont feel she can return the favor at times. Its refreshing to know others have had similar problems.

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    Well If you ever wanna talk about something I'll listen haha. I might not know anything about the path your into but I do enjoy learning about everything sooo.

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    Re: too many paths i cant walk them all can i how do i pick?

    Walking a more individualistic path to spirituality can be tough, especially if you've been raised with a more structured organized religion approach. And I know what you means about concerns of validation and while I think we all seek that to some extent the only one that can truly validate it is yourself. I still battle with trying to define my path and its really changing all the time. Finding research and study groups would be a great start for sure, perhaps start by defining what you feel your practice isn't and going from there.

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    It took me a long time to find my path. I've been studying and practicing since I was a teen. I went from being drawn to Celtic Wicca then Norse Wicca then finally I found my right path (well I know my right path in my heart), which is Egyptian/Kemetic Wicca. I think everyone has trouble finding their right path. Just take your time. You will be drawn to the right one.
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