Hello again! As I said in my intro, I'm new too this. I have several friends who are pagan. But they're a little.... "over dramatic" I guess the word I'm looking for is.
I'm not sure of what I want to do. I want to know a lot of information before I do anything! So I thought I'd share a bit to ya'll for some insight and help..
I wasn't "raised" Christian. I was raised around a family who was, but I was never told I had to go to church, or forced too go. I had a babysitter who is very spiritual and introduced me to shows like Charmed, Passions, etc. I ALWAYS had a interest in this stuff.
then Harry Potter came out and just blew my ever loving mind. Anyways.
I never felt comfortable as a Christian, or even as agnostic, so I thought.. "What's my true calling?"
Little did I know, that my middle name, which is Rhiannon, was a Celtic Goddess of horses, inspiration, the moon, etc. I always found myself closer to animals, and seeming to understand them. Especially with horses. Cats are a close second too this, being one of my cats in my house always reflects my mood, and never leaves my side. I never seen a cat do this before, and my other cat (I have two) doesn't even stick this close too me!
But besides that, I always felt close to nature, and very inclined with the arts. I graduated collage with a degree in art. I draw a lot of inspiration from nature when I draw or when I design things to draw. So I got more curious, as more of my friends told me of their beliefs, but they were so different and not clear I had to find out more..
My husband bought me a book last night about this, and I've been reading it slowly and doing the exercises in it. I'm a little scared, of what people are gonna think, and so on. I have it a bit embedded in my mind that this is bad, but it feels so right too me? I don't know of any pagans around here that hold meetings near me, so I'm scared to ask about due to the fact I live in one of the most Christian states in America.
Wow that's a long thing to read..
I guess my question is.. what do I do? Besides reading, trying to find people, who do I break this shell of "Everyone's going to hate me?"
I'm not sure of what I want to do. I want to know a lot of information before I do anything! So I thought I'd share a bit to ya'll for some insight and help..
I wasn't "raised" Christian. I was raised around a family who was, but I was never told I had to go to church, or forced too go. I had a babysitter who is very spiritual and introduced me to shows like Charmed, Passions, etc. I ALWAYS had a interest in this stuff.
then Harry Potter came out and just blew my ever loving mind. Anyways.
I never felt comfortable as a Christian, or even as agnostic, so I thought.. "What's my true calling?"
Little did I know, that my middle name, which is Rhiannon, was a Celtic Goddess of horses, inspiration, the moon, etc. I always found myself closer to animals, and seeming to understand them. Especially with horses. Cats are a close second too this, being one of my cats in my house always reflects my mood, and never leaves my side. I never seen a cat do this before, and my other cat (I have two) doesn't even stick this close too me!
But besides that, I always felt close to nature, and very inclined with the arts. I graduated collage with a degree in art. I draw a lot of inspiration from nature when I draw or when I design things to draw. So I got more curious, as more of my friends told me of their beliefs, but they were so different and not clear I had to find out more..
My husband bought me a book last night about this, and I've been reading it slowly and doing the exercises in it. I'm a little scared, of what people are gonna think, and so on. I have it a bit embedded in my mind that this is bad, but it feels so right too me? I don't know of any pagans around here that hold meetings near me, so I'm scared to ask about due to the fact I live in one of the most Christian states in America.
Wow that's a long thing to read..
I guess my question is.. what do I do? Besides reading, trying to find people, who do I break this shell of "Everyone's going to hate me?"
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